rimkuss ([info]rimkuss) wrote,
@ 2009-01-16 14:43:00
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I have ignored this journal. When I was unemployed and single it seems I had nothing to do but go on and on about how bored I was. How stuck I was. Just waiting for live to start. Well, life has happened. Since my last entry life kept moving never pausing on this little spot in space to sort it all out. Now, I have no idea were to start. Events are just spinning around my head with no real order.

 

Ran into my old friend Peggy in Target right before Christmas. Someone I went to college with and worked with at Missouri Institute of Mental Health with. She in in fact recommended me for the research position had there. Two white chicks cruised through North St. Louis together with various surveys and lived. Now, she is married with a two year old son. Working as a paralegal for a law firm in Clayton. We were poor working for non for profits together. Talked about the way the world should be. Didn't need money. We were making some sort of difference. Now, Peggy needs money and talks the same legal jargon as the people from my old temp job. Handed me her business card. Told me to call her some time. I still haven't. Not sure what say to her.

 

Worked another Christmas at the children's home although it wasn't as hard my first one. At least I got to spend Christmas Eve with my family. My job is still stressful, somewhat dangerous, and at times I feel it takes too much away from my personal life or I'm really making much of a difference. Then there are moments like last night one of the boys hugged me good night. Or last Monday one of told me they missed me since I called off Sunday. It's then I get it hopeful maybe I am doing something worthwhile.

 

Alan still is doing well. Hasn't had a drink in months. It's like having a new boyfriend almost. Recently he told that he wants to start weening himself off the Lamotrigine that he has been using to manage bipolar disorder. Wants to see what he is like chemical free. It's his body. I'm not going to force take meds he doesn't want. I just worry what it might do to us. We seem to be doing so well at the moment.

 

Anyway, hi to anyone who might still be interested in this journal.



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[info]the_pretend_me
2009-01-16 09:21 pm UTC (link)
So good to see you, after a long absence. You met your old friend and by now maybe you've both moved on a little too far to go back to being pals, right? I'm about to do the same thing next week with an old high school buddy. Tell you the truth, I was getting a little tired of him last time I saw him, 31 years ago. So I'm not expecting miracles.

Alan sober for months? The fact that he seems like a different person, that's the proof. I'm thinking of going sober myself lately. As much as I enjoy drinking, it's seeming to agree with me less and less all the time. Old age catching up, I guess.

I have no doubt at all you're doing something worthwhile. What would happen to these kids without you and people like you? Who would they have? You are doing far more for the world than most of us can claim, so rest easy, Sharon.

Bill K.

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[info]rimkuss
2009-01-19 03:03 pm UTC (link)
Thanks for the positive comments. They made my day.

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[info]the_pretend_me
2009-01-20 12:21 am UTC (link)
Just what I see in you. Someday we might meet in person but for now I do enjoy knowing you.

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[info]rimkuss
2009-01-21 05:01 pm UTC (link)
It's a small town. Just look for a short plum red head(now deciding to dye it) next to a slightly taller skinny dark haired man wearing a black leather jacket and combat boots at vintage vinyl. We are most likely staring at the wall of records telling ourselves we should leave now but there is an MC5 bootleg on the wall in purple vinyl how can we leave without that.

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[info]the_pretend_me
2009-01-21 08:08 pm UTC (link)
LOL, as they say.

I should go to Vintage Vinyl a little more often. As long as your boyfriend won't bust the strange old bald guy in the chops for approaching.

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[info]rimkuss
2009-01-21 09:03 pm UTC (link)
Nah, he's not really the jealous type. Plus, if you start talking about art, music , or bikes he'll assume your alright.

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[info]the_pretend_me
2009-01-22 04:47 am UTC (link)
I expect you wouldn't have kept him around had he not been a decent guy.

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[info]rimkuss
2009-01-22 02:34 pm UTC (link)
true

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[info]queenlyzard
2009-01-28 10:37 pm UTC (link)
*waves hi* Glad to hear things are going well. Good luck with Alan-- I suspect in the long run he will chose the medicated life, but yeah, it may require a rough patch before he realizes it. Who knows, though? Some psychiatric conditions really do change when a person starts taking better care of their overall health.

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[info]rimkuss
2009-01-29 03:58 pm UTC (link)
At the moment he seems to be debating that issue in his head. At the moment with the stress of the layoff it may not be the best time to ween himself off his meds. But then again when is life stress free?

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